Poor, Poor, Frazzled Me!

I have started a new Bible Study at my church (CrossPoint Church), and it is awesome! I've never been in a bible study, where the name of the book fit me so much! It's called The Frazzled Female , written by Cindi Wood. While I am sorely behind in my reading (I blame being frazzled!), I am 21 pages into the study and already my mind is reflecting on the study all day long while I go about my daily routine. (that is a good thing!) I am finding myself talking more to God throughout the day. This book is a good challenge to anyone who desires (or maybe you don't desire, but wish you did!) to have a closer, more intimate walk with Christ. God is revealing Himself to me in many ways so far. 1. That He is everything! I always want Him in my hour of need, but I am also finding that God is fun! I am enjoying Him in worship...He is the excitment I feel when I go to worship Him at church and the music is KICKIN'!!! But even when God is revealing the good parts of my relationship with Him, He is gentle and loving enough to convict me in lacking areas of our relationship. Conviction. That is something I have always struggled with. I hate to be convicted! I fear it! I run from it! I am scared of it! Perhaps that is why I have neglected my Lord for so long in my personal study! But this week, my convictions haven't felt bad. I haven't felt like I am worthless. I guess because my God is big enough, to love me through the bad and the good! Imagine that! A God as wonderful as Him that I place all my faith in, except I have never trusted Him enough to be able to face my convictions and change my sin. God has let me realize that He is not my priority. (OUCH!) For so long, I have been walking ahead of God, and dragging Him along, rather than letting Him take the lead, and me following! He is also showing me that it is my choice to want to spend time with Him. I must respond to Him, He is all around me and ever present! He isn't the one that is MIA, I am! I am also learning that I tend to treat God more like "Santa" than Daddy. Just as I love to spend time with my earthly father, I need to also spend more time with the eternal Father. I tend to mainly come to Him whenever I need (or mostly want) something! Perhaps page 21 sums me up best when it speaks of my "attraction" to Jesus. "When we become busy with too many things-even good things-our focus moves from the Lord to whatever we are doing. We can also become distracted with emotions, people, and time." WOW! DISTRACTED WITH TIME! How about my time is wasted! I spend more time surfing the internet, watching TV, and worrying about the grocery list, or whether or not we have enough money to make it until the next payday. But my relationship with God takes time! He has the time! I have to make it! (which goes back to my priorities) My thirst for Him will come whenever I spend time with Him. I can't just pray for Him to create a thirst and then sit back and wait on it. I have to seek it and He will add it to me.

So wow! There is just a few things on my mind from this awesome study. I hope to learn more and most importantly to grow more. Many people get frazzled in the daily grind. I hope to grow in knowledge of God and gain more tools to use so that I can become "Victoriously frazzled"!!!

J