How To Weigh...upsidedown!

OK, I guess I need to quit denying what is obvious to any eyes that look at me! It's time to loose weight! I've been in denial, imagining myself as being much thinner than I actually am, and all the while, eating like today is the last day on earth and I need to enjoy every "morsel" of it! Can you believe I've gaine weight with this mindset????? It's unimaginable to me, but I have been my most uncomfortable today as my "fat jeans" are now getting too tight! And now that I am not doing Jazzercise anymore, I've got to start walking, or something to keep this hopeful image of a more thinner me alive in my mind and make it happen on the actual body itself! Several years ago (3 to be exact) I was able to loose about 35 pounds (give or take one or two-you know, water weight!!) by following the Weight Watchers way of life. That program actually does work for me, because I have the ability to eat anything I want, I just have to allow myself the "points" for it. (That means I didn't have to go cold turkey and cut out the chocolate I love so dearly!!). The problem is that once you go off program (whether it is intentionally or because one becomes pregnant and gains weight anyway-which is my case), it is incredibly hard to get back on program! I have a good friend who is a WW leader, and I am thinking I might have to enlist her in some "under cover" meetings, as the price of a WW meeting is too much for me right now! (I know $11 may not seem much to some, but when you have a job that pays nothing monetarily.....) Anyway, here is just another rambling from my daily life. Suprisingly I have had more to say in a blog that I really ever thought I would. Which is odd, since I have lots to say in conversations to people and most of the time they have to cut me off or ignore me since I tend to speak up and out a little too much!
Until the next rambling....
J